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sometimes what we wish for
is beyond our reach..
thats why they are called wishes...
but i believe that
life is full of hopes
i have to hold on to them
so that i can move on
the road ahead is a long one
have faith, you.
her name is aslin.
she prefers the quiet way of life.
she is simple with simple dreams
and she is very much contented with her life..
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i should probably be studying... i am. needed to check my seating for tomorrow's paper so decided to blog a bit...
so im crazy. right after tomorrow's paper, im off to kl for a short trip. will be back on monday night. ya, im going for a trip while still having exams. when im back, i still have two more papers to sit for. im so dead, right? haha...i dun want to disappoint my mum and i will try my best to juggle. haha. i dunno if i can but i will just do my best...
i miss him lah. six days since i see him. finally get to see him just now for like 30 minutes?! better then nothing right. so told him not to be naughty when im not around. hehe. he better not flirt with other girls or i shall korek his eyes out! haha. so evil...
well i have studied and gone thru my notes. im trying to remember all those theories. but then ah, studying is one thing. but when you are sitting down and the exam paper in front of you, will you be able to remember all that you studied? haiz... thats what im afraid of. i scared i will forget all that i have studied seh... but no point worrying i guess. the paper is like less then 10 hours away. will just do my best. have faith aslin. ya consoling myself... haha. im crazy. |
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| her teardrops...11:29 PM |
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so today i had my second paper. japanese studies... and a whole lot of things happen today... funny and so merepek. its called the jepun day.
today was the first time i jog in the rain from the bus stop to the exam hall... it was raining and win and me were late. we were not really late lah. we were about to be late. so we ran.
and then i finished my paper at 1030 and i couldnt bear the cold or the thought of sitting there for the rest of 30 minutes. and so i went out of the room and i saw win. she was already out before me! so it was our first times together leaving the hall early. haha... and guess what, i think im so gonna not do well. pass should be ok i think. haha...
so we were both out early. then we went to eat at the coffeeshop and to get there we have to cross the road. but then there were barriers and we were lazy to go all the way to the traffic light so we went over the barrier. aiyoh...so the merepek.
anyway, after eating and all i went to je library to study. ya. study. i did ok. and i still have more to study. i was so sleepy and im having a bad headache. i think it must be the jogging in the rain. im still having it now. i think im going to be down with a fever. haiz...i dun wanna fall sick. more panadols coming... |
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| her teardrops...8:37 PM |
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i really like this song by for minor. the lyrics touch my heart. i have everyone i need by my side. but maybe there is that someone whom has gone. i dunno who but maybe there is... just a feeling. anyway, the song is great. i love the chorus and her voice is like so fitting in to the lyrics.
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home... |
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| her teardrops...7:40 AM |
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when you love someone, you will accept everything about that someone.
when you love someone, you can do perhaps everything for that someone.
when you love someone, you try to understand that someone.
when you love someone, you smile eventhough it hurts.
how much love is love?
how much happiness is happiness?
how much tears is tears?
how much laughter is laughter?
how empty is empty?
i should have known... i should... now its too late. im in deep. but how deep is deep? can i turn back? should i turn back? questions. questions. questions. will i be able to live with it? time will tell... |
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| her teardrops...4:40 AM |
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so today i went to jurong east library to study... wanted a change of environment. sick of the school library. its been quite some time since i went to the library to study. the last time i actually went to the library was when i had to sit for my A levels so thats like about 1 and a half years back. memories came back. all those catching and hide and seek that we played there. i kinda miss those days but the past can never be replayed. its the future that we have to look forward to and what the future holds no one knows. we just have to take a plunge and live it...
anyway, i ran into a weird person today. i was looking for a seat in the library and i saw one table with only one person. so i went to the table and saud, excuse me, can i sit here? she said ya, sure. so i sat and took up all my stuff getting ready to study. few minutes went by and everything seems pretty fine. then it came. she started to shake her head. her hair all messed up. i have messed up hair but somehow hers look even worse. then she started to sigh. she kept on sighing and shake her head. i was like, eh whats wrong but i just kept quiet and continued writing chinese characters... then she cried! and i was like oh shit... so i gave her a tissue. she took it, said thank you and sorry. then she left... haiya... so sad. i wonder what is the matter...
is it exam stress or relationship problems or what... if exam stress and she cries, ok lah...i can understand a bit. i also cry but i think she worse ah. at least i dun cry in the open. and its in the library...hello!? then i thought, must be break up with bf. that one sure cry. i also cry. hmmm....
dunno lah...but i feel sorry for her. whatever her problem is, i hope she solve it and is feeling better.
i left the library at 4 plus. couldnt stand the cold. it was so cold... haiya...wear jacket also like no point. but im pretty happy that i got some studying done. i will do my best. i still want that bloody A. haha... ya. that A. i want that A... |
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| her teardrops...8:27 PM |
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| Wednesday, April 19, 2006 |
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so here i am in school... going crazy. exams coming!!! and my brains jammed now!!! help!!!
kidding...im not stress yet. haha. yet. haha. yet. haha. yet. ok i guess im crazy. thats right. crazy. |
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| her teardrops...3:19 PM |
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yesterday i had a great day with him. went to the zoo! its been a long long time since i went to the zoo. i even forget when exactly was the last time but im pretty sure it was back in the 1990s... so, there was a lot of changes to the surroundings of the zoo.
we arrived at about 1.30om. it was not that crowded. there were the usual foreigners and it was packed with familys and friends. we managed to catch some of the animals during their feeding times. but most of the animals were asleep! yep! asleep. the lions and the polar bears were all asleep... i wanted to see the polar bear seh. so syg said we wld catch them at 4.45 for the feeding session... we didnt managed to catch all the shows though. but we caught the Elephants of Asia. and i really enjoyed the show. the elephants so cute seh. haha. then towards the end of the show, the rain came. it was like super heavy ah. it was about 4pm. and we had no choice but to leave the zoo. the animals also gone i think. all take shelter from the rain. well, they can fall sick too. haha... although i brought along my umbrella its so tak berguna cos we still got wet. haha. but at least not that bad lah. im determine to go to the zoo again. i dunno when. maybe another 10 years later. hehe...
we decided to leave. although the visit was a short one. i really enjoyed it. took a lot of pictures. mostly pictures of the animals and me lah. syg dun like to take pictures you see. he say his smile is expensive! haha. ok lah, but he still took a few just to please me. hehe.
actually i was kinda sad thinking of the animals losing their freedom and getting caged up at the zoo. becoming exhibits for us humans to see... but then again, since they are here protected by the zoo keepers they are well fed and protected from the wilderness. as i watched the elephant show i cant help but think they are quite pitiful. being trained to do cute stuff to humour us. is it then a form of violence? haiz...i also dunno. but what i do know they are safe they. they better be safe. if they are not, its time to do something about it.
anyway, we went to catch a movie after the zoo outing. watched Take the Lead. the dancing movie. not bad. its quite funny actually and those dance moves are like so cool. the girl like so sek ah! haha. if only i can dance like that...but then again i dont really fancy dancing. kalau joget merepek tu maybe can lah. haha...
here are some pictures.. cant possibly put all 39 pictures... haha.
 polar bear sleeping seh... know why i took a picture of the giraffe? i jealous lah they tall. haha..
 the beautiful peacock. but this peacock like stubborn ah. keep on turning. so difficult to get a picture of it. the zebras...
so hard to get him to smile. but he is still sweet anyway.... 
and of course... yours truly... hehe. |
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| her teardrops...8:18 PM |
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i have been wanting to blog since sunday but somehow didnt have the time too. been busy figuring out how to do my geisha project. and its still not done yet. haha. but its progressing and i hope it will be fine...haha.
anyway, i watched the Miss Singapore Universe... and i was pissed with one of the answers by the top 10 finalists. i dont know her name ah but i cant imagine what she said. she said that its ok and fine to have sex videos and nude photos passed around! i mean hello???!!! i know we are westernised and modern but that doesnt mean we can condone such behaviours and that it is perfectly fine to have your sex videos passed around! how can it be? what kind of an answer is that seh... aiyoh, so much for being a beauty with brains. but more like no brains and no beauty! so sad and pathetic...
yesterday, i thought i saw someone... and my heart nearly stopped. haha... weird if it was really that person. my mind is in a whirl. whoosh whoosh whoosh.... |
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| her teardrops...2:10 PM |
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i finally finished that assignment!!! at last its over. no more looking at numbers and microsoft excel! feel so much better that its over and done with... im now left with one more assignment and its over for the semester. still have 5 days to the deadline but not panicking cos its a pair work thing so its easier to finish. split the work... hehe.
anyway, i was thinking why is it that horror movies keep on showing the same stereotypical image of ghosts? must be female, long hair and the scenes will revolve around mirror, flying here and there, burning images, crawling and those sounds... watched wishing stairs on ch u. and i find the plot merepek... instead of being scared and spooked out, i was let feeling what the heck!!! hahaha... but ok lah, at least waste some time and its good since i needed the rest...
my all time favourite horror movie has to be shutter, the thai movie. so cool. and it spooked me out ah. and also the ending was unexpected ah... never thought of it. so clever man this writers... haha... i wish to continue my topic on ghosts but have to eat. later then... |
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| her teardrops...8:00 PM |
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im in my jiwang mode.and i currently love this song.its and old song. so the jiwang...haha.
Gerimis Mengundang
Kusangkakan panas berpanjangan
Rupanya gerimis,
rupanya gerimis mengundang
Dalam tak sedar ku kebasahan
Pernah juga kau pinta perpisahan
Aku sangkakan itu hanyalah gurauan
Nyata kau serius dalam senyuman
Bukan sekejap denganmu
Bukan mainan hasratku
Engkau pun tahu niatku
Tulus dan suci
Senang benar kau ucapkan
Kau anggap itu suratan
Sikit pun riak wajahmu
Tiada terkilan
Hanya aku separuh nyawa
Menahan sebak di dada
Sedangkan kau bersahaja
Berlalu tanpa kata
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan
Sia-sia kukorban selama ini
Jika kasihku, jika hatiku
Kau guris
Dalam tak sedar ku menangis |
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| her teardrops...9:32 PM |
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| it still stays. he say it will not change. she hopes its true. amidst all those smiles, tears, laughter, anger, whats new. every moment is a learning point. and this learning will not stop. as he said, love stays... |
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| her teardrops...9:30 PM |
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| coffee and tea just dont mix... |
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coffee and tea does not mix. even if they do, the taste will be horrible.
coffee doesnt change. still remains bitter. with creamer added in, it will be sweeter. but because its coffee, it will remain and wouldn't change its flavour. and i love it the way it is and the fact that it does not change its flavour.
you can drink tea everyday but coffee is important. i love coffee and i need coffeee. but i loved tea before there was coffee. i cant possibly throw tea away. so i try to mix them with disastrous consequences...
so now i know that no matter how i try and no matter what good intentions i have, coffee will not understand me and that coffee cannot mix with tea. even if mixed, there are rules. then it will not be sincere.
well, they jus dont mix. i dont want to leave coffee but i dont want to leave tea either. i need them both in my life. so all i can do is to manage my time. there is a time for coffee and there is a time for tea.
what do i love more? which is more important? do i have to make a choice? i dont want to. i will just live with it. handle it as best as i can. |
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| her teardrops...11:27 AM |
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