sometimes what we wish for
is beyond our reach..
thats why they are called wishes...
but i believe that
life is full of hopes
i have to hold on to them
so that i can move on
the road ahead is a long one

have faith, you.

her name is aslin.
she prefers the quiet way of life.
she is simple with simple dreams
and she is very much contented with her life..

thoughts

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

today i went back to school to give a talk to the current batch of year 3s. it was suppose to be a motivating talk and i wonder if i did enough to motivate them... i still remember, 2 years ago, i was one of them. sitting there, scared and feeling so stressed up over the upcoming exams. i can really understand what they are feeling and going through. it wasnt easy. i know. as i gave the talk and look at their faces, the past came flooding back. and then i saw him. to my suprise, he actually smiled and nod at me. i dont know if that is called acknowledging or what. i wasnt expecting him to even do anything. i thought he would probably still pretend that i am invisible. as i looked at him, it only reaffirms that my life now doesnt have a room for him. he once occupied that place but he chose to leave. yes, there were happy times and he will always have the bragging rights that he was the first. and i guess he will remain as the first and thats it. he has moved on and i have moved on. our lives are now very much different and we have a whole different path to walk. will our paths cross again? even if it does, what purpose will it serve? the reason. i have always wanted to know the reason. why? but till today, 2 and a half years passed, i still dont know why. but, i sort of lived with it and eventhough now and then i wonder why, i know that deep down i no longer need him. right now, i am very much contented and happy with my current state of life. i have a wonderful family, great friends and a loving boyfriend. when i was down in the pits due to him, my family and friends stood by me. they gave me the courage to move on. i no longer blame him or question why. instead i accept the fact that me and him were never meant to be. but i never gave up on love. i believe that we come in pairs and there is that special someone out there. and i will keep on believing in love. as miserable and pain it can bring, it will also bring wonders and joy. right now i am happy with syg. he made me realise that there is someone who can and will still love me. no one knows if he is really the one but no one says he isnt either. what matters most is happiness. and as long as i am happy and the love is still there, it will continue...

her teardrops...11:44 PM

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