im not in my right mind but i'll write anyway... memories and thoughts will be here to stay. pain and sadness will go away with time... so here goes...
yesterday was mum's birthday. we decided to have an early dinner at pizza hut. an came with my bro for the mini celebration since she didnt make it for royal scotts... we had a great time laughing and joking around. mum is 49 years old! hhhmmm...getting old. i wish her the best of health. health is the most important. she loves her presents. hehe. amidst the moments im facing, i put on my normal crazy behaviour. as always i pull it off. i have been pulling it off since like dunno when...oh whatever.
the large one...
the small one...
well, i was so concentrated on taking pictures of the food that i forgot about the people...haha. did took pictures of them lah. but wouldnt post everything. just look at the pizzas ok. muak ah. haha. after the dinner, bro and an went to catch a movie while we all headed to imm giant for our montly grocery shopping. as usual, the car was like full of stuff and the refrigerator is like damn full. bought jeans and pants. and i just made an appointment for my haircut. if all goes well, it shall be tuesday.
i still dunno what to do. ignore? i cant. i tried but somehow it came back an im never at a peace of mind. i cant tell. i cant talk. so its in me. well, a friend told me it wouldnt be that bad and i wouldnt lose. i hope so.
cant meet syg tomorrow. he is down for ndp. i feel like hhhmmm. only i will know i guess. its going to rain i think. the sky looks dark. rainy days makes me feel even sad. hhhhmmmm....
so i changed it yet again. oh whatever.
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