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sometimes what we wish for
is beyond our reach..
thats why they are called wishes...
but i believe that
life is full of hopes
i have to hold on to them
so that i can move on
the road ahead is a long one
have faith, you.
her name is aslin.
she prefers the quiet way of life.
she is simple with simple dreams
and she is very much contented with her life..
| Tuesday, January 30, 2007 |
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hehe.. i finally had my haircut.. and i feel that my head is so much lighter. haha. you know..like got no hair.. ok. got hair but just lighter lah.. as usual the stylist went on and on about how thick my hair is.. not my fault what.. my mum got thick hair so naturally my hair thick also lah.. hehe. and she chose a new hairstyle for me.. i dunno nice or not ah but im pretty happy with it.. at least its not very short and its way neater now.. haha. and my fringe..like slanted seh.. i dunno how to explain.. haha. she say stylish.. to me like normal ajer.. haha. i dunno much lah about this hair stuff.. and i forgot to take pictures of the my new look ar. hahaha. nvm. there will be other times. hahaha.
and syg accompanied me lah just now. take the opportunity to meet up.. its been awhile since we met. he too bz. haha. the army like never give him chance ar. want to ord but yet still so bz. but its ok lah.. im so used to it anyway.. haha. and as long as he is not doing anything stupid, im fine and cool.. hahaha. im such a good gf. *everybody rolls their eyes* hahhaha.
anyway, i got my chocalate milk tea.. like finally ah. hahaha.. ooohhh. so the nice ar. hahaha. i also bought 3 pairs of earrings.. hahaha. its kinda cheap lah. 3 pairs for $5. so ok lah tu.. syg was like.. "lagi?!" hahaha. what to do.. i like collecting earrings mah..
ooohh..im feeling kind of happy cos i have no school tomorrow.. hahaha. i can wake up a bit late and rest.. but then ah got to do some readings ah.. that one like so no mood. im like forever reading ah. haha. so many stuffs to read. and the pile gets thicker and thicker. even if i read, like im going to understand like that.. hahaha.
ok.. im going to watch some tv. worry about the readings tml. see, procrastination. is it spelled correctly? hahaha.. nvm. you all get what i mean right.. hahaha. ok. |
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| her teardrops...11:00 PM |
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well well well.. the weeked is coming to an end! so the sad.. its back to school tomorrow seh.. the thought of lectures and tutorials are so not appealing.. sometimes i wonder how is it i made it through the past 3 semesters.. hhmm..school's not that bad lah.. it is fun also but then.. hahaha. nevermind. whatever whatever..
anyway, i had a good day yesterday.. i did nothing! haha.. all i did was watch tv and more tv.. as mentioned in my previous post, yesterday was the singapore-malaysia match.. and we won!!! woo hoo.. it was so the drama ah.. whenever malaysia attacked my heart like can stop seh. hahaha. and when malaysia scored first, i was like so the sad ar.. so not the good ah.. but credit to spore for bouncing back.. the defence was weak ar.. but we managed to make it through.. hehe. oh well, lets hope they will win the cup yet again! and i so wanna watch it live at the stadium ar.. but if i cant, its ok.. in fromt of the tv also can lah.. hahaha. and man u won too!!! haha. we are through to the 5th round! oh yeah.. it sure feels great.. must keep up the momentum.. hehe.
and so.. i didnt do anything much today either.. haha. i tried reading my european textbook. the word is TRIED! hahaha. i fell asleep after 10 minutes.. well, at least i read for 10 minutes. haha. this is so bad.. how am i ever going to finish reading the book seh.. haiya.. oh well. whatever. we'll think about it as the day passes by.. hehe. ok then.. its back to resting. i need the rest. have to prepare myself for another tough week ahead.. |
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| her teardrops...6:45 PM |
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| Saturday, January 27, 2007 |
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finally... its the weekend.. haha. im so happy the weekend has finally arrived.. not because i have plans to go out but because i have plans to rest at home! hahaha. i need a rest dah.. sounds like im had a tough week right? actually..its not tough. but i just feel tired tired. like tired ah.. ok. i dont know how to explain it. hahaha. but you get what i mean...
later tonight we have the singapore-malaysia match.. i so wanna go and watch it at the stadium. but i cant.. i have to take care of my sister.. well, i thought of bringing her along.. but then.. im scared she might get lost.. and if she not lost, i might be the one lost. haha. so nevermind. we'll stay at home with our snacks on our sofa.. haha. the last time i watched a match live at the stadium was during the tiger cup final with twin.. and that time singapore won.. so the cool ah. and what great memories it brings.. haha. hopefully, singapore wins again and get into the finals.. hehe. so the exciting. and i'll be cheering for singapore from my sofa. hahaha.
anyway, i just watched the australian open female's final. serena williams against maria sharapova. woo hoo.. williams won and the way she did it was like wow ah.. kinda feel sad for sharapova but well, its a game and there can only be one winner. what to do.. hahaha. and there's also the man u match tonight.. i hope man u will be able to bounce of from the arsenal defeat.. so the sad thinking about it.. oh well.. what is done is done. nevermind. woosh.. talking about sports sure makes me smile.. its a form of escape for me.. haha.
and i haven seen syg for quite some time.. he so the busy.. want to ord but yet still so busy.. oh well.. nevermind. im so used to it anyway... haha. hhmm.. its raining heavily seh.. i wonder how the singapore match will be held. i hope the rain stops.. if not, it'll be hard seh.. but the weather is perfect to sleep in.. hehe. alright.. will stop here. till my next entry.. |
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| her teardrops...12:40 PM |
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| Tuesday, January 23, 2007 |
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hhhmmm... im damn tired!!! you know like tired tired.. ya lah. tired. physically and mentally. tired lah.. i like want to just sleep. i dun want to go school. i dun want to go out. i dun want to do anything. i just want to slack and do nothing. see lah.. i want my holidays back.. i want to SLACK! ok.. so i cant. school just start back so cannot slack.. haiya.. ok.. i feel like complaining. hahaha. actually not complain lah.. making a statement. ah whatever lah.. so here it goes..
school.. wah lau.. there are like so many readings to do ah. the damn coursepack so thick. and the words so small.. notes so many. and half the time i dont know what the lecturers are saying.. so going to die. seems like as i go up each semester, the harder it becomes.. wah lau. actually right... i do enjoy school. i like going school. i like listening to the lectures. i like eating in the different canteens. i like walking and slacking at the forum. BUT i dont like the exams, the readings, the term papers and the group projects.. hahaha. who like right?
tutorials.. started. and im so not in the mood for them ah.. have to answer this and answer that. makes my brain work. and im already like clueless half the time.. and im expected to answer the questions.. wah duh! and i have to do the readings.. eh., i mentioned that. haiya.. so many to read and even of i read them i like dont understand what im reading dah.. wah. come to think of it i wonder how i actually made it through the past 3 semesters..
manchester united.. wah.. i feel like banging my head! i cannot believe they lost at the dying minutes.. i thought we had the 3 points. see.. soccer just tells you that anything is possible. it never is over until the referree blows the whistle.. wah.. thinking about it makes e sad. we could have a 9 point gap!!! oh well..at least our 6 points gap remains. it better remain that way seh.. and i certainly dont want the other 3 teams to catch up seh.. warghghgh...
us... hhhmm.. i must say i never did imagine the thought of us still being together after 2 years.. maybe it was the past relationships.. maybe it was situations and maybe i dont know.. but still its another milestone reached. they say its never about the duration of the relationship.. its more of what you share and experience during the time together.. and i think what we shared is enough to make me go crazy and him go crazy.. so im crazy and he is blind. and until im sane and he can see clearly, we will still be together. hahaha. 2 years huh. im glad and im happy. im thankful for it and will always be no matter what the outcome is.
ok.. i think thats about it. oh ya.. i have been craving for bubble tea seh. just now met syg but the bubble tea shop closed already. and so i had to settle for macdonalds chocolate milkshake.. nice lah.. but i still want my chocalate milk tea.. ok. im so going to get it soon. i dunno when ar. okok. i think i stop here before i become even crazier. maybe i need sleep. lack of sleep has made me go crazy. ya. that must be it.. ok.
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| her teardrops...11:55 PM |
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two years 24 months 96 weeks 730 days 17520 hours 1051200 minutes 63072000 seconds it still stands still and remains. much happiness and sorrowness. many more moments cherished. a love i'll remember and it still continues... |
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| her teardrops...1:05 AM |
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| Saturday, January 20, 2007 |
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have been thinking and i realise that as always...there is nothing that i can really do. i just have to take one thing at a time and live day by day as it go.. hope is diminishing and i guess we just have to continue living with it.. tough but we have lived with it for such a long time and we have to continue like that..
syg knows im not exactly feeling happy but he said not to worry. pity him having to endure my moods.. i gave him a choice and he had chosen. he said im crazy and i said he is crazy. haha. in the end he said because we both are crazy, we'll stick together no matter what. ok syg. we will. i hope i have the courage to carry on. if i falter along the way, im sorry.
hhhmmm... moving on to a lighter topic.. in 2 days will be our 2nd anniversary. i didnt imagine that happening... and cos syg cant get leave on monday to celebrate it, we decided to have a mini one today and another one when he gets time off.. so we went fish and co. been a year since we went there.. see, being with syg made me visit so many restaurants and taste a lot of different food.. and syg as always have a big appetite. its always about the food you see.. haha. i love the hot chocolate fudge. so the sweet... haha. and the waitresses there were like suoer the friendly ah. they keep on coming to our table and asked about the food. like after sending one dish they will wiat for 10 minutes and then come to us.. "how's the food? i hope its good." and im like.. hmm. then they came back and asked, "is everything ok?" and im like.. hmm.. syg was like, i want to eat in peace. haha. but they were very nice and polite. haha. anyway, eating and spending the time with syg just now made me forget about the troubles im facing.. and he tried his very best to cheer me up. haha. so i guess im feeling a bit better... and its the weekend.. there's soccer! haha.. and this weekend matches are mouth watering.. haha. the liverpool-chelsea match is in 2 hours time.. well, being a man u fan, i hope it will end in a draw or chelsea losing it.. hehe. and tomorrow, there is the arsenal-man u match. and man u must win. haha.. ok, will stop here... some pictures of our fish and co date...
 before our meal...  i find this thing.. very cute. haha.  the calamari.. his favourite.
 this is.. peri peri catch. i wonder why its called peri peri.
the seafood platter... punya lah kenyang.
 my favourite of all!! so the super sweet.. ooo..  after the dessert.. time for a photo. (tak lepas itu fudge!) haha. |
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| her teardrops...6:45 PM |
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| Tuesday, January 16, 2007 |
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they say a leopard never change its spots..
how true that is.. sometimes i wonder why he's like that. i thought he would change but he didnt. numerous chances were given but still he remained that way. why doesnt he think of the people around him and learn his lesson? what is it that he wants? he said he wants respect but how do we respect him when there is nothing respectable? i just dont understand. im tired of his attitude and i dont know what else should be done. isnt there no shame at all? doesnt he feel ashame of his actions?
i feel the shame. sometimes i dont know how to face people. but then when i think back, its not my fault. i didnt ask for it. i pity her but i have no idea how to help her. i worry that things will become even worse. i just hope that one day he will realise his mistakes and change.. but this hope of mine is like diminishing bit by bit. i thought it stopped but it didnt.
i dont know what to do. im at a loss. i want to change things but i dont know how. i dont want to get into trouble. i dont want to make things worse. maybe thats why i studied extra hard and try my best to be a good girl and not cause any trouble. in a way then there is something for her to be happy about. i want her to be happy and not be sad. im sad looking at the way things are. but i really dont know what to do. maybe if i bang my head, things will change ar? haha.
maybe there really is no way for him to change. well.. a leopard never changes its spots. and im almost giving up... |
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| her teardrops...6:30 PM |
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wah... im super tired!!! and i dont know why.. my shoulders hurt. my leg hurts.. wah.. im tired. ok.. im exaggerating.. haha..
so..yesterday was syg's birthday.. 23 years old.. not old lah.. just mature. hehe. but then ya, a bit old.. eh next year i aslo 23 seh.. wah. old. hahaha.. nevermind. we'll worry when that time comes. hehe.
anyway, we went to desa kartika for dinner to celebrate.. he was raving on and on about how sedap the assam pedas was.. so i told him, ok.. we go there for your birthday.. i want to try! haha. so we went there and there was quite a crowd but it was ok.. the food was hhmm..not as sedap as i thought it would be. hahahaha. i think i was expecting too much dah. haha. but anyway, it was quite delicious lah. better then the average assam pedas but i think my mum cooks better.. haha. we ordered quite a number of dishes and i wanted to take all the pictures ah but then the owner like there and i paiseh to take... haha. so i took 2 pictures only. haha.. the assam pedas and the ayam panggang bali. as for the other dishes i didnt take lah. hahahaha. my verdict on desa katrtika is.. it will be better if you go with family. hahaha. two people eat like no kick cos the kepala ika like so big ah. hahaha. but we did enjoy the food as always.. hehehe.
and it has been quite some time since i went to orchard ah. so yesterday when we went to taka for dinner, i was quite suprised that there has been changes to orchard. and there were still so many people at town. maybe it was a saturday night.. but then i thought people will be off to vivo and so not much people at orchard but ya..im wrong.. well, we didnt go window shopping or anything cos..syg as always is never a fav with it. haha.. but i dont mind lah.. no money not fun lah want to see stuffs.. haha. but as always we bought ice cream from the apek.. and we enjoyed eating it as we walk to far east to take the bus home.. haha.
as you all know..i blurted out what was the present to him.. and he being so merepek pretended to not know.. so the cheeky kan. and he feigned suprise! kelakar ah kirakan. but he seemed happy with the wallet. haha. so anything lah. just want him to be happy. and i must say the wallet does look good on his palm. haha.
hhmmm...the first week of school has passed and all my modules suck.. its getting harder and harder.. haiya.. so no mood. but..must persevere.. it will be fine. just do my best and take one day at a time.. damn. tml school. haha. ok lah.. i think today im just going to slack at home and rest. watching the day after tomorrow on ch5.. its a very memorable movie for me and twin. hahaha.. and its a great movie. got sad, happy, action, suspense and so on. so its a must watch! hahaa.. and man u won yesterday so we still have our 6 point lead. hehe. ok then.. till my next entry... and photos of yesterday...  before dinner...
the assam pedas kepala ikan. quite nice. 
the ayam panggang bali. also nice. haha. 
on the bus back home.. tired and a full stomach. |
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| her teardrops...3:05 PM |
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| Wednesday, January 10, 2007 |
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the new semester has started. had lectures on monday and yesterday.. today no lectures. hehe. but when tutorial starts, i guess its school for me too on wednesdays.. haven really had my complete timetable but it still is bad.. so rubbish the timetable.. but what can i do.. haha..
and ya.. its been only two days of the new semester and already i am feeling tired.. haha. lethargic and so not in the mood.. cheh. school blues.. and my texbooks are damn expensive.. even the second hand ones are $30 plus.. wah. at this rate i'll go bankrupt.. hopefully not all my modules will need textbooks.. hehe. but then it still means that i have to so the super save my money..
well.. hopefully nothing bad will happen in school this semester.. i just want to maintain my grades and take one step at a time.. the modules are getting harder.. and i guess each semester is getting harder too.. and i cant believe that im only left with 3 semesters.. it feels like yesterday that i set foot on nus.. hahha. oh well.. lets just get through this semester and see what happens.. haha. |
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| her teardrops...12:28 PM |
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| Saturday, January 06, 2007 |
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hhhmm.. i was not intending to blog today but in the morning something happened and it really pissed me off so much so i have to 'pour' it out here! wah.. thinking about it makes me so pissed seh..
well.. i had to fetch my sister from her religious class and mum was me.. we were at the bus stop and 334 came.. and because it was in a saturday morning you know lah ah ..thee were a lot of nyonyas and makciks back from the market.. so when the door opened, mum went in and i was left with ika..there were a lot of people pushing.. this makcik pushed me to get on the bus first.. well, im not angry. it was just an accident.. BUT i tripped and thus accidentally pushed a nyonya beside me who was also trying to board the bus.. i was about to say sorry when the nyonya suddenly turned and shouted at me..."DONT PUSH. WE CAN FALL YOU KNOW!".. and i was like.. "hello.. it was an accident and it wasnt my fault." i wanted to say nicely and i was even prepared to apologise to her BUT she actaully SHOUTED at me! and there were like so many people ah.. and you know seeing me, they thought im an inconsiderate teenager who has no manners.. wah lau.. please lah ok.. doesnt mean that im behind you, im the one who pushed you and there was not a need to SHOUT at me..
that nyonya really make me angry seh.. you know, they always tell us to help the elderly lah.. give up the seats lah and so on.. hey, i do that ok. i respect the elderly and i willingly give up my seat to them.. and i even help some nyonyas and makciks carry their plastic bags ok.. so hello, i know and i have manners ok.. maybe im not a saint but there's really not a need to SHOUT at me.. to think that i was prepared to apologise eventhough it was not my fault.. arrrggghhh..
sometimes i think the elderly should also spare a thought for us.. i mean we are helping them as much as we can but if they themselves dont want to be helped, than what can we do? im not being rude.. as bad or horrible people think i am, i do have manners.. my parents teach me ok. so please lah.. think before you act. and if i really wanted to push that nyonya, i will like really push ah..what for hold back right? im not angry ah that i was being pushed but im just pissed at the nyonya ah.
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ok.. i think i feel better. what a way to start the day seh.. haiya. i dunno lah. |
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| her teardrops...4:45 PM |
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so i was saying about pretence..
hhmmm... we present a different kind of image to different people whom we meet.. and this image that we present will of course produce different opinions to them. sometimes what we present is actually not the real us..
so i was wondering when someone shows a certain image, is it the true reflection of the person? lets say this person shows an image of wealth. that he comes from a well to do family. and having project that image, the people around him will thus form the opinion that he is wealthy.. but what if he is actually not wealthy? what if he was just presenting that wealthy image? and wouldnt it be hard for him to carry on presenting that image? in other words to keep on pretending that he is wealthy when he is not.
its the same with someone who presents a happy go lucky exterior. he is alwasy laughing and goofing around..so much so that the people around him thinks that he has no problems and leading a happy life. it does not mean that he has no problems. or that he is leading a happy life. maybe he is just hiding his troubles. he doesnt want people to know the real 'him'.
my literature teacher once said that we all wear masks. different masks for different situations. i think it is so true. if so, when do we not wear the mask? with whom do we really let our guard down?
i was just wondering why we try so hard to keep up the pretence? maybe it isnt so much abot pretence. maybe it really is the truth.. but i guess whatever it is, we, humans are such complex characters. we never know the real thing. there's also that quote.. something along the line of.. our lives are like plays. we are actors in our own play... a play of masks and pretences, emotions and feelings.
hhmm..what mask are you wearing now? |
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| her teardrops...8:10 PM |
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| Thursday, January 04, 2007 |
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it has started raining yet again.. hopefully it wont drag on.. i do like rainy days but it would be nice to have sunny weather too. a mix lah.. haha. and speaking about rain, my umbrella cannot use already dah.. its spoilt! looks like will have to buy a new umbrella soon. wouldnt want to be stuck in the rain with no umbrella seh.. but then..it would be nice to play in the rain.. haha.
oh ya.. i changed the skin.. not much of a difference from the previous skin.. haha. i like black for the background and this new skin has black and the picture is kinda cool.. and sweet.. made some changes here and there but overall i think its still pretty much the same.. hahaha. oh well.. i dun have that much knowledge on this kind of stuff.. so whatever will be will be lah eh.. hehe.
and i was wondering..PRETENCE.. hhmm..will blog abt this when i have the time.. till then. |
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| her teardrops...6:48 PM |
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| first 2007 post. slenger me. |
| Tuesday, January 02, 2007 |
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first entry of 2007!!! hahaha..
so its now 2007.. just another year.. and i wonder what will lie ahead for me this year. will this year be better then last year or will it be worse? no idea.. haha. will have to go through the year.. and its only the second day of the new year.. sometimes when you think, its like so fast the year has gone by but at other times when you have nothing to do, you feel like its taking forever.. haha.
the start of 2007 has been hhmm.. ok, i guess.. like i said its only the second day! haha. met syg for lunch and spent the afternoon with him just now... he like cant wait to finish ns. be patient..its coming. hehe.. and hopefully things will be more stable and will fall into place. so hang on syg.. and we were talking.. we realise that this year there will be changes.. like.. he finishing ns. starting working life back. and i wonder how it will be like when he starts work. there will changes. will we be able to adapt back then? hhmm.. i have no idea.. lets wait and see.
and i did a very slenger thing just now.. haiya.. i so the selenger.. you see, i bought his birthday present oreadi.. then ah yours truly blurted out what it was! so the slenger kan?! and he was like laughing and i felt like so so so slenger.. see, now no suprise oreadi.. oh well, its ok.. his birthday is like 11 days away..so takper lah. haha. haiya.. so slenger. i cant believe i blurted it out. *dong* and since he knows, might as well say.. i bought him a braun buffel wallet. hehe.. kirakan exchange lar.. he gives me one, i give him one lah.. haiya.. i still feel so the slenger. another *dong*. aper dah aslin..
school is starting in 5 more days.. and im like just getting into the really slacking mode.. haiya.. now need to start the engine running.. its not going to start. a bit rusty.. so shall wait when school really really really start..hhmm.. when does it really start then? hahaha.. ok, cant be bothered for now.. talk about it later..
haiya.. man u drew with newcastle. so the not nice.. now we only have a 7 point gap which will be reduced to 4 if chelsea wins their match later tonight.. hhmmm...considering the form chelsea is in they might just drew again but then..never underestimate them.. they might just win.. and that thought is unbearable! ok..lets hope that they lose.. hehe. oh well.. soccer is so soccer. speaking about soccer, i miss playing dah.. but then time and circumstances doesnt allow me too.. cheh.
ok lar.. no mood to blog. nothing comes to my mind.. maybe i shall write a senseless post one day.. ok. set. wait for it... |
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