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sometimes what we wish for
is beyond our reach..
thats why they are called wishes...
but i believe that
life is full of hopes
i have to hold on to them
so that i can move on
the road ahead is a long one
have faith, you.
her name is aslin.
she prefers the quiet way of life.
she is simple with simple dreams
and she is very much contented with her life..
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i feel like my exams are over..
so so over..
well..i have another paper though.
damn.
i just feel like its over.
hahaha.
and its europe..
like hello..
my history days are so so over.
its now full of soci crap.
and asking me to switch back
to europe is kinda hard.
damn..
oh crap..
i feel like its over oreadi.
i miss going out.
i miss spending time with my bf.
i miss slacking at home.
i miss not doing anything.
i miss so many things..
ok. 2nd may. |
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| her teardrops...11:01 PM |
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was listening to class 95 yesterday night..
and they played
as long as you love me
by backstreet boys...
as i listened to the song
i smiled to myself..
the song was so popular in the 90s..
and i was one of the crazy girls
in love with boybands..
hahaha.
so funny.
those were the days..
and i use to think that
howie (bsb) would fall in love with me..
ya right!
hahaha..
come to think of it
there were so many boybands during the 90s
backstreet boys (my fave)
n'sync
boyzone
code red
98 degrees
and so on...
like hello, i dunno how many there are.
actually right
they cant really sing you know.
i mean.. ok. their voice not bad
but they were definitely not the best.
but still i was one of those girls
who would go crazy after them.
hahaha.
listening to the song
brings back wonderful memories..
oh well.. time moves on..
now its 10 years later.
not many boybands surviving.
haha.
but yeah.. its the memories..
and i bought the new bsb album
when it came out.
hahaha.
old habits die hard.
had my 4th paper just now.
yeah..
4 down. 1 more to go.
i so cannot wait.
actually i felt like my papers were over already.
hahahaha.
ok. i shall wait. 2nd may.
4 more days..
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| her teardrops...10:12 PM |
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had my 3rd paper just now
and i went home to sleep
but i was like not sleeping
i know i slept
but its not sleeping sleeping
like my mind is somewhere else
even now as im typing
i cant comprehend what i am writing
so many things on my mind.
crap.
im tired.
physically and mentally
i need sleep.
i slept.
but it was not sleep.
why ar?
ok. cant wait.
3 down. 2 more to go.
hang on.
hhmm.
i just dont feel good.Labels: sleep |
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| her teardrops...8:26 PM |
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im like freaking tired these days..
been going to the library
to study.
ya. i did ok.
a lot of things on my mind..
something unfortunate happened to him.
it made me feel worried and scared.
but i know i cannot stop him
so i said to him
please please please think..
if not for me, for your family.
and that i will never forgive him
if he were to leave me in that manner.
its bad enough with the way things are
and this happened..
this year has not been a great start for me.
be it in terms of
family, school or him.
so many challenges and barriers.
misunderstandings, fights..
shitty people, rude people,
horrible papers and horrible timings..
i have really seen it all this beginning of the year.
i cant help but feel sad.
sad that at times i feel
no one understands or care
but then again,
u can never say u understand someone
cos u are not that someone
so it is impossible for someone
to understand u completely.
hmm.. had my first paper just now.
well, i think i shd be able to pass.
im not sure abt the scoring part.
but im never abt good grades in the first place.
im contented to just get a pass.
1 down. 4 more to go.
by 2nd may, i will be free.
and then i can rest.
rest and rest and rest.
well..
i really hope the next half of the year
will be better.
i wouldnt ask to be free of worries.
life is full of worries.
but i ask for strength to help me
overcome these worries...
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| her teardrops...11:45 PM |
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so he knows...
and so he tried to make up for it..
he said..
i know the hurt will always be there
i will find a way.
it will never happened again.
hhmm...
thats what they are for i guess.
always having a way.
so yesterday went to seoul garden.
marina square.
i like never really went there.
and it was like big ar.
and i thought vivo was big.
vivo is the biggest.
so marina is like the second biggest?
crap.
my legs are tired from all that walking.
anyway, i was like super pissed when we reached there.
it was like damn crowded with groups of tourists.
i wouldnt say their nationality
but my goodness..
they are so so rude.
and i thought we, Singaporeans are rude.
but i tell u..
seeing them makes me feel that we are angels.
haha.
lucky they all went off soon..
and we could enjoy our lunch in peace.
and as he was trying to make up for it,
he was extra extra nice to me.
so sincere and im touched
but.... i dunno.
we'll see.
after the heavy lunch went for a walk
around the shopping centre.
and as we passed by the many shops,
we were stopped 5 times by different bridal shops.
like they want us to go in and get married asap.
wont be soon k.
still long long way to go.
like very long.
so wait.
spent the day just now in the library with mum.
ya. with my mum.
she insisted on accompanying me to study.
i didnt force her to layan me.
she just wanted to follow.
hehe.
so as i typed away,
she read her book..
it was only 4 hours and she was like
so long so long.
haha.
love u lah mum...
have to go school tmr.
to collect papers.
like hello..
so ma fan.
and like my first paper is 4 days away.
crap.
its super fast.
but its ok.
i will just do my best.
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| her teardrops...10:53 PM |
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im going to disappear for awhile. Labels: disappear |
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| her teardrops...12:05 AM |
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maybe its time for me to let go.
maybe its time for me to stop thinking.
maybe its time for me to stop bothering.
maybe its time for me to stop caring.
maybe its time for me to stop talking.
maybe its time for me to take a step back.
its getting tiring.
its getting ridiculous.
its draining my energy.
its making me sleepless at nights.
its making me wonder.
its making me crazy.
its really hurting.
all that for nothing.
just a waste of my breathe.
just a waste of my time.
all i wanted was to help.
all i wanted was to lay things out.
all i wanted was for you to consider.
all i wanted was for you to listen.
obviously you're not.
obviously you dont understand.
and obviously i dont either.
and so im tired.
and so im hurt.
maybe its really time.
im not giving up.
i just feel its for the best.
or maybe it just need time.Labels: maybe |
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| her teardrops...12:30 AM |
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| Wednesday, April 11, 2007 |
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oh wow!!!
man u won 7-1!!!
i tell you.. its like super the great.
worth it waking up at 2.30.
i tell you.. i cannot believe it.
like every shot went in.
and the quality of goals..
fooo....
im like super crazy happy now.
ok. but we cant get carried away.
we still have the fa cup semi final.
hopefully, we will be through..
wargh..
super the happy.Labels: man u |
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| her teardrops...8:10 AM |
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hhmm...
today is 9th april..
and my first paper is on the 21st.
which means...
like im left with 11 days..
that like crap..
suddenly like so fast huh.
hahaha.
and i was like so cant wait for MAY to come..
wah..
so the fast.
like nervous.
hahaha.
crap.
i have lost count
of how many exams i have taken
of how many essays i have wrote
of how many pens i have used
crap.
by the way im pissed man u lost.
like what the hell.
only a 3pt gap.
and we still need to go chelsea.
crap.
i like so the pissed.
crap.
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| her teardrops...6:40 PM |
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just got back home. celebrated ika's birthday just now. 11 years old.. like so the fast.. i really should start to think.. hhmm... nevermind. went to seoul garden. and im like... we just went seh 1 month ago. but she's the birthday girl... she calls the shots.. so off we went. and she wants the marble cheesecake from secret recipe.. ok.. pictures. no pictures of me. was busy taking the photos. mum and dad were like eating. and so it was just ika. haha.
 at seoul garden..
 the two people who drives me crazy...
ya.. that marble cheesecake...
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| her teardrops...11:45 PM |
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| Wednesday, April 04, 2007 |
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im like freaking tired these days.
physically and mentally.
too many things on my mind. i want the old one back.. when oh when will all these end?
mr bean holiday. watched it. funny. crap. i feel like going for a holiday. i need a break. and a holiday.
i want MAY. i need MAY.
 its been a while.
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