my open tears

sometimes what we wish for
is beyond our reach..
thats why they are called wishes...
but i believe that
life is full of hopes
i have to hold on to them
so that i can move on
the road ahead is a long one

have faith, you.

Monday, December 31, 2007

its the last day of 2007!!!
and so this will be the last post of 2007!
hehehe..

the year seems to go past so fast..
its always like that right?
hehe.

so what happened in the year of 2007?
hhmm..
lets see..

i turned 22.
hahaha.

i think its my last year to get green packets on hari raya..
hehehe.
cos next year i hope to get a job
so that spells the end of receiving
and the beginning of giving?
hahahaha.

the family is fine..
everyone is okay.
and healthy.
ika is growing way taller
soon she will be taller then me
which is fine with me.
hehe.
i always want my sister to be taller.

school?
hhmm..
mixture of results.
not good but not bad either.
it will be my last semester
when school starts.
which is pretty soon..
haha.
im wrecking my brains to choose my modules..
crap.
never mind.
the last time im choosing modules.
hehehe.

hhmmm.
syg and me doing well i guess.
fights are common..
but we take it as a learning point.
it really tests our patience.
but we'll see..
heh.

i dun have any new year resoultions
but i have lots of hopes
lots of them..
hehehe.
i dun think i can list all of them in this entry.
hahahaha.

alrite.
will stop here.
i wanna watch tv.
heh.

so..
goodbye 2007 and hello 2008!!!

her teardrops...5:19 PM

Saturday, December 29, 2007

i said

no more shopping right

hhmm..

wrong.

well..

i bought another pair of skinny jeans.

this time its black.

so now i have 3.

3 only.

not as many as other people.

hehehe.

went vivo like again with syg yesterday..

finally got to try the desserts at bakerzin.

not bad.

but i think its too sweet.

then again, thats why its desserts right?

they have to be sweet.

oh well..

and we went for a drive after that.

like just drive.

waste petrol seh.

but i know he just wanted to cheer me up.

so sweet lah u syg.

cant wait to meet u again next week.

heh.

and there's a man u match tonight.

we are now top of the table!!!

oh yesh!!!
heh.

ok, i better not speak too soon.

hope for the best.

and i have been going out a lot lately.

tired dah..

so i guess im staying home today.

duduk diam2 kat rumah.

and enjoy the slacking before sch starts.

okays..

will stop here.

till the next entry people...

while waiting for our desserts to arrive...its one more for the album. heh.

her teardrops...2:32 PM

Friday, December 28, 2007

morning people..

i woke up just now and it hit me that
school is reopening..
AND..
its going to be my last semester!

ya seh..
hhmm.
i cant wait to grad.
then i can call myself an NUS graduate.
no longer an undergraduate..
hehe.
you see...
i want to find a freaking job.
and save a LOT of $$$.
hehehe.

but then..
im sure im going to miss school.
oh well..
will save the tears for that post.
heh.

still..
over the past few sems,
i made some wrong decisions
along the way..
hhmm...
maybe its not wrong
but just... not right?
haha.

for instance,
sometimes i wonder
if i made the right decision
to major in sociology.
looking back i kinda missed political science
maybe i could have done better
or maybe i could have done worse.
anyway, anyhow,
its way too late now right?
hehe..
we just have to look forward i guess..

oh well..
like i said,
save the tears for that coming post.
okays..
will stop here.
have a date with syg.

maybe we can do a bit more of shopping..
chet~

her teardrops...10:12 AM

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

i got my results!!!
and hhmmm...
its bad seh..
well, at least for one of the mods.
i got D+ for my ocean!!!!
hahahha..
i dont know whether to be sad or happy.
haha.
it sucks to get a D+
but its better then failing right?
and its chemistry seh..
like obviously i cant do the paper.

and to think i did pretty well for my food.
both are science mods
and the results are so different...
oh well..
whatever.
funny thing is my cap actually gone up.
by 0.01.
hahaha.
at least it went up right?
crap.
im contented.
it could have been worse.
so im pretty much okay..
heee...

and i went to jp with mum and ika
after i viewed my results.
went shopping.
perfect way to forget abt my shitty results.
but then again..
i go shopping regardless of good or bad results.
heee...

yesterday's date with twin
was like cool ke doodlez..
had a nice chat after so long at coffee club
and then it was shopping again..
so hhmm..
this week only..
i bought 4 tops!
adui.
and i bought syg's bday present.
timberland shoes..
i lurve it..
hehe.
he does too..
lucky got sale.

so..
i am pretty much broke.
very broke.
but oh well..
i just have to start saving money back.
i can be such a scrooge at times
but i can also spend money like water seh.
ish..
ok. no more shopping for the rest of the month.

ya.. like real aslin.
oh well.

her teardrops...10:28 PM

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

hehe...

i bought the latest backstreet boys album..

ok.

if you have been reading my blog

you would have realise that in one of my entries

i wrote about them..

those were the days my friend..

when bsb was like the ONE.

hahaha...

and they still are to me lah..

i was in primary 5 when i bought the first album.

that was like what 11 years old seh.

and now im 22!

see... 11 years seh.

and i have bought all their albums..

somethings never change huh.

call me a groupie or slenger

but bsb is still there...

hahaha..

and this latest album is quite nice..

they sound more mature

and their stlye is still there..

tat is howie..
he's the one i like most...
haha.
and he just got married i think..
i tink he couldnt find me dah..
haha.
ok. mepek.

anyway, went shopping with the family yesterday.
finally bought a new washing machine.
the old one has died 2 weeks ago.
and for the past 2 weeks,
have been washing by hand..
so tired.
see..what technology and machines do to you..
hehe.
it will come tomorrow..
oh yesh.
haha..
and we bought a new house phone.
it looks like a handphone cos its wireless..
feels weird.
oh well..
as long as we have a phone its good.

ok..
will stop here.
meeting twin later at vivo.
now its been really long since i met her.
hahaha.
till the next entry about our meeting.
haha..
ttttaaaaa....

btw, merry christmas to those celebrating...

her teardrops...11:16 AM

Sunday, December 23, 2007

insecurities..
nonsence thoughts..
that feeling of wanting to be better..
the feeling of dislike when somene is ahead..
but it all boils down to this
what the heck for?
live and let go.

learn.
dont be like that.
let go.
maybe then you will be free.

her teardrops...2:33 PM

Saturday, December 22, 2007

went to town yesterday..
been such a long time since i went to town.
was never my favourite place.
too many people and it feels so suffocating.
and town is so far.. haha.
vivo is much nearer you know..
hehehe.

and we had to went there
cos syg had to buy knives at tangs.
ya. knives..
and he insisted on that particular brand
and its so expensive. $136.
he tried to explain to me why it is so
and so on and so on..
but i cannot be bothered. hehe.
these chefs spend so much money on knives..
there's even a $600+ knife ar.
crazy.
hhmm.. but then, i wouldnt know right.
oh well.. whatever lah syg.

ooo..
the christmas lights were kinda nice.
not bad. but i think hari raya at geylang nicer.
hehehe.
anyway, by the time i reached home
tired seh..
not from walking but from trying to get breathing space
lucky got enough air.
hehe.

ok. mepek. tttaaaa..

the night view with the lights on...

he changed his specs. orange! hehe. i like.

her teardrops...3:14 PM

Sunday, December 16, 2007

it has been a hectic few days..
was helping out at my cousin's engagement party.
two of them.
yes.. two. siblings getting engaged on the same day
and i was the chief PA.
hahaha...
and yes.. i was super busy.
actually dunno busy with what.
i think more like busybody.
haha...
but hey..
its fun right..
and i really do feel happy for them..

of course..
there was the usual sayings of..
"when is your turn?"
to which i just replied...
tomorrow, before sunrise...
hahaha..
kidding lah...

but reali..
when is my turn?
not any time soon people..
i still have other agendas..
like finishing my studies
getting a job
buy my mum a lot of stuff
and so on..
also, no money..
marry what right?
later i kawin lari then you know...
hahaha.
kidding. im not that belo yet.

seriously here..
its just now now..
i still ahve other things on my mind
and marriage is not one of them..
of course, i want to get married.
but now is not the time.
i want to make sure that im ready
be it mentally, physically or financially...
marriage seh..
not like you can change husband everyday right.
so as for now,
im content to help other people get married..
hehehe..
and no worries people..
when i do get married
i will definitely shout it all out!
okies.. picture time now.

but of course.. its me!!! haha.

helped my mum with this.. made two sets for both the siblings..

yana's one... the elder sis..

yanti's one.. the younger sis...

the two sisters.. yana in purple and yanti in pink...

one group photo..the cousins.. not full yet. hehe.

okies..

will stop here.

more pictures will be up once i get them from the siblings..

orites..

till my next post.

her teardrops...4:23 PM

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

hola!!!
im back...
hehe..

the kl trip was really satisfying..
yes. im bankrupt.
wats new right?
shopping like mad...
but come to think of it,
i didnt really buy much...
just a few tops.
so not that bad right..
oh well..

hhmm..
its been raining all day since like dunno when.
when i left on friday,
it was raining.
and now that im back,
it is still raining...
adui..
and im like having running nose due to the weather..
haiz..
when oh when will it stop dah..

i want to put up pictures..
but im lazy dah..
so another time ok.
will stop here.
not in the mood to write any longer.
see ya when i see ya then...

her teardrops...2:55 PM

Thursday, December 06, 2007

hola!!!
syg bought me a bag!
hehehehehe..
he says..
to celebrate the end of my exams!
so...
when get results, can get some more presents eh?
hehehe...
ouh wait...
his bonus coming..
so one more present eh?
hehehe..

chet.
i know what you're thinking...
but..
im not that mean..
i dont spend my bf's money okay..
haha.
so no worries..
presents or not,
i still lap u lah syg..
hehe..

okay..
will be going to kl with my family
over the weekend..
just a short holiday.
but im looking forward.
though its just kl,
its still a holiday!!!!
so my next entry will
be about the holiday..
willtry to take as much photos as possible.
like always,
i will be the one trying to make sure there are photos.
no one else cares seh.
its memories you know!
ok. im crapping.

alrighty will stop here.
till the next entry.
*grins*

her teardrops...11:25 PM

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

its over!!!
so so over!!!
my exams are over!!!
yes. yes. yes.
hehehe...

i am so going to enjoy my holidays.
like do nothing and slack at home.
watch tv.
sleep as much as i can.
go shopping.
watch movies.
and.. hmm..
wat else ar?
never mind.
doing nothing is also considered doing something right?
ok. crap.
doesnt matter.
oh yes...

ok.. ttttaaaa....

her teardrops...3:00 PM

Saturday, December 01, 2007

oh yesh!
4 papers down.
just 1 more to go...
hehe.

i so cannot wait for the exams to be over.
i want to rest.
i want to sleep.
i want to watch tv.
i want to go shopping.
i want to slack..
hhmm...
ok.
ya.

oh yesterday right..
guess who sat in front of me during my
nation building paper...
Andrea Fonseka!
ya seh..
and i was so damn blur ah.
i didnt even know it was her
until win came and ask me after the paper..
and i was like huh?
no wonder ah..

i was like very distracted by her seh.
she was tall and slim.
and she wore a cap.
i should have realised right??
damn. blur aslin!
but then.. she not that popular right?
and what can i do right?
aiyoh. blur seh.
she smell really good.
ya. she was like that near to me ar.

and she wore this jacket
that has so many beads and glitter at the back
i was like super distracted that i counted
how many beads were there ah.
ya seh.
haha.
and she look so like a model
and different from what she looks like on tv.
and she like turn to look at me twice ar
she even smiled.
and yet i didnt know...
crap.
i am super blur
how can i not know.

ok. dah..
tu ajer.

her teardrops...6:45 PM